Day by Day

Tomorrow is my third weigh-in. I'm both nervous and excited about what the scale will say. Sometimes I wish my scale would do what the Special K scales do, you know, where you step on and instead of it saying a number is says "Pizzazz" or "Joy" or some other corny adjective.

But at the same time I'm happy is says a number. I just wish that the number is says didn't define me as much as it does. It should be about how you feel inside, how your clothes look and fit. There are some days where I feel like the number on that scale is tattooed on my forehead. When I have gone through 67 different outfits in the morning because I just can't seem to find anything that looks good that day. Then there are the days where I am convinced that the scale is broken because my pants look huge, and I don't want to change my clothes into pajamas at the end of the day because my outfit is just so damn stellar!

Weight is funny that way.

I look in the mirror and don't think I look like I am 214 pounds. I feel like I look smaller. I see people on Biggest Loser or Celebrity Fit Club (is that even a thing anymore?? No idea.) who weigh about the same and I think to myself "I know I don't look THAT big!"

It's so strange to me how weight is carried so differently on different people.

But I keep taking my journey day by day. I am trying not to get too ahead of myself. It is only 4 pounds after all, I am not going down in a size for a while. But I keep seeing all of the cute Spring and Summer stuff that is already out in the stores. (That's right Old Navy I'm looking at you. Swim suits already?? It's January!) All I think when I see those adorable things are "Oh man I can't wait to try skinny jeans!" ok... even if I am 150 pounds I doubt that skinny jeans will ever be flattering on me! But I digress.

I just have to remember to take this adventure day by day. Don't get hung up on what is coming next month or the month after. Chose to eat like a bird the night before weigh-in over the cookie that your brother offered you today (those are for my weekend cheat days).

One pound at a time... just one pound at a time... (but hopefully a couple tomorrow morning!)